I needed a TIME OUT!

So I am back! But lets be honest you probably didn't even know I had gone anywhere! recently I haven't felt myself. I lost a little part of me and I have struggled to find it again.

I will be honest and say I'm still trying to find that missing part. A lot has happened over the last few months and with my husband deployed (again) I always tend to struggle a little. Its hard to try and juggle the day to day life with three children and still find time to be you!

I love blogging, making videos and rambling on insta stories but I felt I had lost my way a little. I fell in too that awful part of social media where you start comparing yourself to everyone else, doubting yourself, wondering what exactly it is that you are trying to offer the world.

With my own personal things going on it all became to much. I needed some head space...a time out! To think about who I am and what I want to do. To focus on my children and get my prioritise in order. I had lots of thinking time and I realised that I don't need to have it all figured out. I don't need a "niche", I don't need to jump on any band wagons and I shouldn't care what others think, or if someone is doing better than me. We often forget everyones personal circumstances are different and we shouldn't compare ourselves or try to assume things.

I am me! I like what I like and I may not fit into a mould that social media deems good enough to be successful, or maybe I do? Who knows and to be honest who cares! I have decided i am going to do me! Post what I like, write what I like and the right people will follow. One quality I have always been proud of Is that I don't do fake! I can't be fake!It isn't in my nature. I have and always will be a what you see is what you get. I can laugh at myself, I am forever making a fool of myself and I am a people person. I felt like I was loosing sight of that. I questioned if I should change what I have been doing and then I realised that is ridiculous!

I am a mixed bag kinda gal! I love fashion, homed decor, makeup, beauty and of course being mum! I am passionate about raising awareness and sharing my experiences with mental health. Suffering with my mental health was a very dark and lonely period n my life, and if I can help just one person feel less alone then my bad time wouldn't feel so bad, and that some good has come from it. I often don't post some of those things for the fear of being judged or accused of not being "me" or trying to jump on a band wagon. But to be honest I think it would only let people see more of the real me! So from now on I shall be posting what I like, what tickles my pickle if you will!

Life is too short to be anything but happy and doing "this" makes me happy. I need ti step out my comfort zone a little, make myself  priority and focus on what I want and not what I think people want.

If you have made it to the end of this...well done! its a bit of a word vomit blog post ( can you even say that on a blog post?!?) but its my thoughts, my ramblings and how I'm feeling at this moment in time.

I am back to do what I love. It is a little something for me. Something to call my own and I am very excited to see where it takes me. I have been blessed with some amazing opportunities through my social media platforms and I will be forever grateful for that.

So heres to not worrying about fitting in and just doing me!

Thanks for reading

Natasha x


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